We are such fragile fragments in this infinite universe. Sometimes a person will go through many trials before they reach a place where they are somewhat content. It’s a daily struggle, sometimes minute by minute. They have to battle their brain and cage their poisoning thoughts.
But God is there.
I’m here to tell you it’s not enough to say your a Christian and go to church. Your daily life and your activities need to reflect God. Spend time with him and speak to him like he is your friend because that’s what he is. He is your father and your friend. He loves you.
“Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to a known God.” (Corrie Ten Boom)
I’ve spent so much time putting him off. Trying to fix my own problems…leaning on my own spirit to make me happy. It obviously didn’t work. I’ve been through so much in my life because I keep making the choice to ignore him. So God keeps bringing me to a place where all I have is him. It’s hard but changes needed to start happening and I’m still continuing to grow.
I know pain. I know struggle. I know that sinking feeling that consumes you. You feel constantly short of breathe and in my case my thumb twitches constantly when I’m stressed! You feel like a zombie. It’s not a good place to stay in, so I know it seems impossible. I know you feel weak, but you have to fight through it and look to God. Every minute. Every day. You have a purpose. There is hope. And God does have a plan.
God created humans with our free will in tact, so without free will we wouldn’t have the choice to follow him. He gave us freedom to live our lives. That’s the beauty of it. That’s love. And when you get led astray by the wrong things, we have the peace of knowing God is always there.
We live our lives for God. This life is all about him. To glorify him. Then he calls us home and everything we experience on this earth seems minuscule.